I MAY NOT PUBLISH THIS POST!!

We had a BAD evening yesterday.

I suppose it began when I had spent the afternoon making a proper dinner as Charles had said he would be home by 5.30. When he eventually turned up at closer to 7pm I was pretty fed up, although I should have known that things happen at work and timings have to be flexible. However, a quick phone call would have been helpful.

Things then went from bad to worse when a friend of Charles's rang up to say he is in the area and would like to meet up. There were a number of options for meeting , but Charles went for the 'Come to us' one, despite my quiet pleading otherwise. Please don't think that I am anti-social or awkward - but at the moment I am totally unable to get out to the shops so would find it near impossible to prepare anything to make the poor guy feel welcome. Plus I still look like a gargoyle, so there is some embarrassment on my part.

I have to admit that I was furious - mainly because I thought Charles would realise that I'm not able to cope with people just now. Things escalated and I admit that throwing the coke bottle was not a good idea - but I was SO frustrated.

When people come to our house I like to make sure that there is plenty of home cooking - even if it's just biscuits and cakes to go with a cuppa - and I feel so disappointed with myself for not being able to do this. During the night, when I was restless and awake, I have decided that whatever condition I was in this morning, I would make an attempt to drive to Morpeth to get some supplies in, but in the cold (and bright) light of day I've realised that that's a none starter. My left eye is STILL inflamed, closed and sore, and the right eye is still shutting in sympathy, so I won't be driving anywhere soon.

(The other thing that upset me is how the dogs just sat and stared at us as if they couldn't understand why there were raised voices. I am so sorry girls!)